Wordful Wednesday ~ Where has the time gone?

Today my oldest daughter drove her first car home.

Today I smiled as she got out of her car and fondly remembered myself at the same age.

Today I wondered where the time has gone.

Cait1

Where did this baby go?

Where did those chubby cheeks and baby smiles go?

How did we get to 16?

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I look at this little face and wonder where the time has gone. I know that it didn’t just fly by while I was sleeping because I have so many wonderful memories, so many pictures, and so much love to have missed any of it.

My hope for her is that she knows how much I love her.

My hope is that she knows how incredibly proud I am of her and all that she has accomplished.

My hope is that every dream she has comes true.

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But for all my love & pride in her I have fear.

I’m afraid of her growing up and not needing me anymore.

I’m afraid of her going away to college.

I’m afraid that I won’t be able to help her when she fails at something.

Cait

Look at her….

Isn’t she beautiful?

I think she is…. but the again I’m biased.

In my heart I know that all will work out perfectly, but sometimes it’s hard to not wish for more time with that chubby cheeked baby.


27 Responses to Wordful Wednesday ~ Where has the time gone?
  1. brittney
    May 15, 2012 | 10:42 pm

    wow I cant even imagine. my oldest is turning 5 next week and i already feel those things.. they grow up so fast!!! She is beautiful!

    • Jackie
      May 16, 2012 | 8:44 am

      Thank you! They do grow up fast… to fast!

  2. Kristen
    May 15, 2012 | 11:06 pm

    Oh my goodness! I just said the other day that in 6 years my oldest will have her driver’s license and it totally freaks me out and here you are…
    She is beautiful! Enjoy all of these new experiences with her while never forgetting the older ones!

    • Jackie
      May 16, 2012 | 8:45 am

      When my girls were that young I never thought much about it and when Caitlin got to middle school things started to actually sink in.

  3. Elaine A.
    May 15, 2012 | 11:10 pm

    Oh gosh, you’re gonna make me cry! One of my babies just turned 5 today and I cannot even believe where THOSE years have gone.

    And yes, she is beautiful. Congrats to her on the car! :)

    • Jackie
      May 16, 2012 | 8:46 am

      You know I don’t even realize that so much time has past until I start going through pictures and then I wonder in amazement at where we are now & how in the world we got there!

  4. Life As Wife
    May 16, 2012 | 12:05 am

    YAY for raising a responsible, sixteen year old!

    Congrats – to both of you!

    • Jackie
      May 16, 2012 | 8:47 am

      She is so responsible… more than any kid her age that I know. Way more than I ever was!

  5. Life with Kaishon
    May 16, 2012 | 12:05 am

    Oh! She is so beautiful. This made me cry a little. Doesn’t time just fly. Praying for her safety as she drives all around. I know driving time will be here before I know it.

    • Jackie
      May 16, 2012 | 8:47 am

      Thank you… I know that she is a good driver and that she’s responsible but it’s all the other drivers that I worry about!

  6. Kimberly
    May 16, 2012 | 12:22 am

    I feel this way as my son gets older too. I wish to have more time with him, as the little one that he once was. I look at him and see that he is growing into a man, and though I am beyond proud of him, it hurts. Time flies much too quickly.

    You’re a great mother. She knows that. And as time goes on and you both grow, you will find a new balance. You’re her mom, you will always be there for her.

    • Jackie
      May 16, 2012 | 8:48 am

      Thank you so much. It really is hard letting go and knowing that they can handle things on their own. But I have to do it, right?

  7. Jessica
    May 16, 2012 | 12:32 am

    Oh this hurts my heart! I dont want to imagine my boys growing up, but I know its going to happen. And faster than I want them to. Congrats to your daughter, getting that license the first time is so exciting! And Im sure scary for Mama. Good luck to both of you!

    • Jackie
      May 16, 2012 | 8:50 am

      The funny thing is that I made her wait till she was well past 15 to take drivers training (you can take it at 14 yrs & 9 months) and then made her wait well past her 16th birthday to get her actual license. There are so many rules now! It’s hard for me to keep them all straight!

  8. Liz @ A Nut in a Nutshell
    May 16, 2012 | 9:38 am

    Oh how I feel for you. It really does slip by so quickly. I hope you and she will always be close though, because even though my daughter is out on her own, we are constantly talking and sharing and laughing. I hope the same for you.

  9. Stacy Uncorked
    May 16, 2012 | 9:39 am

    Awwwww! She is beautiful – then and now. :) Why must time fly by so fast?!

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  10. Julie
    May 16, 2012 | 10:44 am

    You mean we have to let them DRIVE?

    Oh no.

    And her cheeks are still pretty cute! I have those apple cheeks too. I used to hate them when I smiled, but now I embrace the roundness.

  11. Jill
    May 16, 2012 | 11:39 am

    Aw! I hope she reads this. And yes, she is beautiful and you have done a wonderful job!

  12. JDaniel4's Mom
    May 16, 2012 | 1:36 pm

    She is lovely! Time sure flies!

  13. angela
    May 16, 2012 | 2:29 pm

    She is absolutely beautiful. And happy.

    And hugs to you :)

  14. angie
    May 16, 2012 | 2:46 pm

    She’s gorgeous! They grow up in the blink of an eye. I love that picture of you as a baby!

  15. Shell
    May 16, 2012 | 3:53 pm

    She’s so beautiful!

    This makes me want to go squeeze my littles and tell them to stop growing so quickly.

  16. Missy | Literal Mom
    May 16, 2012 | 4:43 pm

    It is SO hard not to wish for the chubby cheeked babies sometimes, isn’t it?

    Yes, she’s beautiful! I can’t believe you have a driver in the house now. Eeek!

  17. Making It Work Mom
    May 16, 2012 | 11:05 pm

    She is gorgeous! My oldest is 12 and I realize now that I am closer to her driving than I am to those baby years. Makes me want to weep, but I am also so proud of how she is growing up.

    Sigh

    it is hard!

  18. Brandy
    May 17, 2012 | 12:23 am

    Such a sweet post. Time really does fly.

  19. Leigh Ann
    May 18, 2012 | 3:30 pm

    What an exciting and bittersweet time! My main hope is that I can be there for them when they want me to be…and that they WILL want me to be there.

  20. Andrea
    May 19, 2012 | 12:34 am

    She is so beautiful!

    And?

    She looks so much like you! :D

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